Awful

    I just feel so awful right now. I wish someone was here, to comfort me and to keep me company. I feel so lonely right now. I'm scared. What's gonna happen to me? I wish someone would hold my hands and say, 'you don't have to go through this alone, we'll go through it together.' I feel like crying. Are they pent up feelings that are finally boiling up after so long? I don't know. I don't wanna go out. I just wanna stay at home. I just wanna sleep into oblivion and when I wake up, it's just a long bad dream. I had a strange dream today. It made me feel certain kind of way that I just can't describe. Standing at the rooftop of a building at night in the rain and I could see all the skyscrapers around me but then, one by one became dark. I just wanna sleep, I just wanna sleep, in the hope of everything will go away. Nothing feels the same any more. I think I need to get outta this place.

I'm Fine

    I'm not cool like you. I wish I could be you, or like you, but I'll never write cool captions like you do. I'll never travel to cool places like you did. I'll never look cool like you. I'll never wear cool clothes like yours. But it's fine. At least I'm being myself. At least I'm not pretending to be someone else. And, I may not have what you have, but I have seen, heard and experienced things, beautiful things you might never see, hear or experience, and that's pretty cool.

I Wish I Could Be Cool Like You but At Least I'm Being Myself

    So, aku dah dapat beg Fendi tu and this is gonna sound ungrateful but I sorta regret it. When I unboxed it, it's smaller than I thought (I should go for big bags after this) and it's more art deco than biker-inspired. I must say though, being a bag from the 90s, it's in more than a fair condition. It's not that I don't like it or hate it, I do like it and maybe it'd grow on me in time, it's just not what I'd expected. 

    I feel like I should've got the Versace Goddess T-shirt first, maybe I would've been happier. I've been wanting it for more than a year now. The reason I didn't get it is I felt like, it's just a T-shirt, you know what I mean? It can wait and a bag is worth more than it but alas, I've learnt my lesson and that is to buy the things that have been in your wish list for quite sometime first before getting the newly listed ones.