There are parts of my past that I miss, for instance, when I was unemployed and there was a lockdown across the country, I'd watch TV until late at night but do I wanna go back to that? No. I only miss parts of it, not the whole of it.
When I came to Kuala Lumpur in 2020, I was reminded of Sam and I missed him so much I thought I wasn't gonna survive every night. Now I don't miss him any more but I miss my old, younger self who had a romantic view of life and was full of youthful idealism. I used to have a vast imagination, like the ocean but now, I'm weary of the world and I rarely imagine any more, I'm too busy.
Maybe, someday, I'd look back and miss myself.
