Tadi, aku tengok filem Companion dan ada seorang tu watak tu, muka dia macam seketul makhluk masa aku buat foundation dulu (ugh, meluat) tapi aku betul - betul bersyukur aku dah tak berkawan dengan dia dan orang - orang lain yang toxic.
I used to hold on to the dream or the hope of us being friends for ever because we did have so much fun together I chose to turn a blind eye to his problematic behaviours but he was always trying to tear me down at every opportunity and at one point, I just no longer could take it.
It's been four years since the last time I spoke to him (I confronted him and he just didn't have the ability to admit and apologise) and I don't miss him at all, not any more. I used to, in the beginning, after I cut him off, but then I met new people, I made new friends and I realised I deserved better. There are people who can treat me so much better so why would I go back to him?
Sometime ago, a mutual "friend" of ours texted me, asking, 'would you be interested in rekindling your friendship with him?' I could confidently say, 'abso-freaking-lutely not.'
I'm at the stage in my life where I'm not looking back any more. Sure, I reminisce the good old days from time to time, the bittersweet times and the best moments of my life so far, but I look forward to meeting new people, making new friends and creating new memories.
