I'm so tired. Hari ni, aku bergaduh lagi dengan mak aku. Aku bukan saja - saja nak gaduh dengan mak aku but I couldn't help it, aku pun ada perasaan juga. Kitaorang baru berbaik so the feelings are still raw dan aku dah bagi tahu mak aku what not to do tapi dia buat juga. Aku cuba bersabar but then she kept doing the stuff I told her not to do so I snapped. Aku plan nak buat assignment hari ni tapi aku tak boleh buat apa - apa sebab aku penat, aku kena tidur. I think it's best for now aku tak cakap dengan mak aku.
Anyway, sebelum aku tidur, there's something I wanna say. Tadi, macam biasa, aku keluar bilik, jalan dekat luar block aku, ambil udara malam. Aku pun tak tahulah ada perayaan apa tapi dari jauh, ada orang main mercun dan bunyi dia macam ada peperangan tengah berlaku. Aku imagine aku hidup dalam apocalyptic world dan aku dan Tally saja yang tinggal dekat kolej ni. Kitaorang terselamat daripada dunia luar dan malam - malam, kitaorang akan duduk dekat satu tempat ni dan tengok peperangan tu dari jauh.
Dear Tally, ever since you left, everything's been harder than it already was. When you were here, you were like a beacon of hope to me, everything felt worth fighting for but now you're gone, I don't know what I'm fighting for any more. I'm lost. I try to live on without you but it's so hard. Every day feels like a battle. If only you knew and if you did, would you come back to rescue me or would you leave me to suffer? I just wanna know the answer, please. I don't know how far I can go like this, I'm struggling.
